It's been a while. So I apologize to all one of you who read this. It's not about me, thats my title?..... I mean yeah it is. I was born. And from birth I'm trained on how to live my life to make it the best for me. Work hard in school. be successful get lots of money so you don't have to worry. Why do have to worry anyways? I have no fear in my life except for that of others. That they do not know the love of Christ Jesus. With an abusive father, I have no model in life. My mother does more than I can ask, but she also I must protect from my father. Love is much more deeply understood and appreciated when you understand what it is like with out it. From valley's I thought that I would never crawl out of, the Lord lifts me up. Just as important if not so, God humbles me from the mountain tops where I shout and say look what I have done. Oh the new year is here. Good I was tired of screwing up in 2009, now I can in 2010. Lately a "friend" has been beginning to push it too far. I kinda see it as my fault. I'm disrespectful to women constantly. I cuss like a sailor, maybe worse. When it's my impression to others that i'm challenged with, I will throw my character out the window. But i love being a man of character, why do i do that? This friend has begun to think that life is for him and for now. He has begun to cause damage to others emotionally and physically because he simply does not care enough for others to go out of his way to help. I've let it go to far. This year I will be a man after God's own heart. Help me to pursue Christ. To lose my life in hopes of helping yours. I will fail miserably and fall on my face. and when I do, help me to my feet so I may lead on

Veterans Day

As I look at my life, thinking about reason and purpose, my responsibility also comes to mind. What am I supposed to do. Hmmm wake up, go to school, make good grades, respect adults... That's about as far as it goes. If I do that I'm considered by some to be a "great boy". In almost a year I could have the responsibility of putting my life in danger for hopes of protecting someone I've never met. This position we call the military is far more than any of us normal civilians will be able to understand. We consider it a good deed if we go out of our way to help someone. These men and women go so much farther. They make a life of it. With every movement they make, they're attempting to make our world freer and safer than it was before even at the expense of their lives. Thank them,thank their families and Thank God for them. Happy Veterans Day.

To my Dear and loving Wife

If ever two were one, then surely we.
If ever Wife were lov'd by man, then thee.
If ever man was happy in a wife,
Compare with me, ye men, if you can.
I prize thy love more than whole Mines of gold
Or all the riches that the East doth hold.
My love is such that Rivers cannot quench,
Nor ought but love from thee give recompetence.
Thy love is such I can no way repay.
The heavens reward thee manifold, I pray.
Then while we live, in love let's so persever
That when we live no more, we may live ever.
-Anne Bradstreet (man and wife inverted)

One Night

"Christ! What are patters for?"-Amy Lowell "They are largely for the timid; for those who find them comfortable. It seems to me that an adventure must be defined as an undertaking whose end it is impossible to know"-John Keats
Ha this is is the most appropriate summary for what will be a night I remember. With no plan, what is there to lose. No one to disappoint and no reason to not do something.
Going away from normality and experiencing something outside of what we call this monotonous thing of life. This was our adventure. An experience. Something Great.

Give your life

Sixteen years gone.... "I want to love, I want to learn to love everything, but the world's too big the world's too big I know" Or is it? If a spark can start a forest fire, I believe I can change the world. Since birth I've been taught that my life, is what I make of myself. That for the good I do I will be rewarded. Keep them. Who invented rewards. If you sacrifice something but get a reward, how are you better than where you started? This world says that what I should dream for is to go to school, have fun, get married, make money, live fully, and retire to a nice home. Wait..... Live fully? How can we do that when we don't know what is going on with this world that we are living in. How can we be free to live, free from our conscience and free from sadness when we are aware that people are dying because of another's greed. My life is a period of time, a beginning and an end. That time is all I have...... and I'm going to try to look out for myself? It dies with me. Forever gone from anyone else. I will live for others. I will live so that others will experience a profound sense of Joy. Why is it that celebrities are never satisfied? Why American's always want more THINGS. Because the sould longs for a satisfaction that a simple material will never bring. It's the satisfaction of knowing it is well with our souls. "It" is everything that has caused us trouble between our birth til the day we die. We can't control anything but ourselves, and even then it's not perfect. But with what power we do have carry the burden of the world, because right now it's resting on the shoulders of those who don't have enough to eat. American's have 1/10 of the world's population yet 2/3 of the worlds wealth, yet we brag that we are the most "generous" country. Money is not generous. Wealth is a curse and life is a blessing. Give the gift of life. To Darfur, to the homeless, to you're friends, to you're neighbors, and to your enemies......Give Your Life